It’s my goal to strive to be the best person that I can be everyday!
Wow, where do I even begin. The past few weeks have been incredibly challenging for me to say the least, but you will have noticed that I’ve struggled with the blog posting for the past five days or so, that’s because of a number of reasons which I’ll outline here but I also wanted to take the opportunity to talk about a few other things about me, Sam not Sassi! 🙂
I have been in the online space now for five years and I’m struggling at the moment with so many things and I’m not going to bore you with those details. We all have our own journeys that we are on and no one person’s journey is harder or better than anyone else’s but I do like to remind myself that there is someone out there worse off than me to try and put life back into perspective when it gets all too hard some days.
The past four weeks I’ve been experiencing a lot of external sabotaging in a number of forms, I’ve never experienced this before but I’m trying to go with the flow and deal with each incident the best way that I can.
The most hurtful form of external sabotaging was to find out that someone who I thought was a friend has been backstabbing me, and for some time too I find out … I have compassion for this person as I understand that they are struggling with their own issues and are projecting them onto me, but that doesn’t mean that I am not hurt by their actions and of course I can no longer trust them.
This was the beginning … of my sabotaging.
In the past couple of weeks, I’ve had my computer hacked and sent to geek hospital twice (never happened in my life of owning a computer before), and now my blog has been experiencing major major issues and corrupted itself completely randomly on Monday and I’ve been unable to blog. And this is at the end of six months of hell trying to get my new blog design finished and it’s still not (not going to bore you with that nightmare).
And on top of all this, I’ve been in bed sick since Friday last week …
I don’t know what to think about the above.
When we’re in crisis, we learn more about ourselves and those that care about us or those that we thought cared about us. As people who are close to me know, the past few years for me have been so incredibly challenging and confronting and only a few special friends have stuck with me and for that I’m incredibly grateful but a lot haven’t and although I am saddened and still feel hurt that they were unable to walk beside me during hard times, I accept where they were at and understand why they were unable to deal with what I have been going through. BUT, I’ve picked up some amazing new friends and supporters, who are incredibly authentic and are there for me when I need them in the good times and the bad and I feel so blessed … you know how you are 🙂
But I also must mention the kind words of strangers has been amazing and has meant a lot to me!
During these challenging times, I also feel lucky to have had an amazingly supportive family who I couldn’t get through life without and of course feel lucky to have my blog and business to keep me busy and add a bright spot to my day.
Oh God, how could I forget, thank god for Ellen!
I have endeavored to create a fun space for you to pop by for a visit when you’re having a break, like a kit kat break but instead it’s a “Sassi Break” … BUT I’m not saving the world and that’s why I don’t take it seriously.
So right now I am feeling a touch disheartened about what I’m doing and what’s been happening … I hope to find a clearer direction again soon but for now, I don’t know how much I’ll be blogging, I’ll just do what I feel is right for that day.
Thank you for all your support and kindness you have showered upon me, I’m forever grateful that you found a moment in your day to pop by for a dose of “Sunshine & Lollipops” on your “Sassi Break.”
Love, Light & Happiness
Sam creator of Sassi!
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